It’s been a long while since my last blog. I started writing this one at the beginning of 2017… and, well, I went through my own personal breakdown.. so, let’s go back a bit...
2016 was an interesting year for me. It was a year of endings. A year of many fun experiences – some which were exciting, some challenging, some that brought many laughs, and some, a lot of tears. It was the year my marriage ended. It was also the year I learnt how to pull a pint of Guinness! Being Irish we all want to be able to do that, right?! Unfortunately it was also the year I didn’t listen to my own physical need for rest and to my greatest surprise, let myself burn out..
Mentally, I was dealing pretty well with my marriage breakup, or so I thought. Physically, I was pushing myself, believing that I could handle everything, as I wanted to keep myself going forward. It was a classic case of denying myself time. A marriage breakdown is like a death. You go through all the same emotions caused by grief: sadness, regret, guilt, anger and loneliness. You need to give yourself time to heal, to go through all the emotions.
I am grateful for the good times I had during my 11-year marriage. The many happy moments with his family, the many countries I visited, including the USA. If I had not met my husband, I would not be living now in America. I do believe I am here for a reason. To help Americans achieve happiness and inner calm, especially during this time when everyone seems to be losing it. Many are dealing with an increase of fear, anxiety, despair and anger. We have to work towards our own happiness but we can achieve it. The lesson I learnt in the last year was a good reminder. I had just forgotten to practice it myself.